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to be honest I wonder if i still struggle with paranoia.

and perhaps this is all a way of working out those scenarios in a safe space.

sometimes i wonder if the paranoia is more something else...

more truth..

perhaps i am being cruely let in on peoples secrets...

i hope for yoursake i'm not, otherwise this will all seem quite horrible for someone...

or perhaps its good. perhaps seeing the truth is motivational or heart breaking or connects someone with God. Who can tell...

But i definitely do not have the ignorance to deny... only the torment or perhaps the illumination of discourse and pondering...